Saturday, 19 October 2013
When a friend heads back into addiction
Art is still drinking and still claiming that his drinking is not a problem. Art has not drank in front of me. And there are no bottles at his home. Perhaps he is only drinking at camp. I don't really know.
Art's personality is not being improved by his intake of the drug alcohol. That is for sure. I've noted a ruder and cruder Art emerging over coffee in the last week. Consequently, I've had to make a tough decision.
Art has to go. Or, to put it another way, I have to make myself scarce as far as Art is concerned. I have found myself mourning the friendship that we have shared over the past decade or more. We've had lots of good times, he and I. We've done quite a bit of traveling and drank quite a bit of coffee together. But that is done for now.
I cannot jeopardize my own well-being for the sake of another. Art is not an evil human being. At this time, I cannot afford to hang with him. Art has returned to a past lifestyle. I cannot do that. I don't want to be around the drama that is Art when he uses. When and if Art is ready to quit using again, someone else will have to help him. We've been too close. I can't do it. There are other people that I can have coffee with and travel with and have good times with.
We become what we do. And we become again what we do again. I wish to journey forward as a human being, not backwards into the bondage that is true addiction.
Where's the coffee?